However you come at it and however far you err there is a truth of this, a truth that exists, and it can only begin from deep subjectivity; the way this all, the kaleidoscope of appearances you call an individual mind born into a world, comes about, what founds it. That is the only form that truth can have because it is finally the only question that persists. It would be enough to get right up inside the question, the only true question, with no concern about whether an answer belongs to it  there is nothing outside that could underwrite an answer. The true question is the truth, and it poses itself. Of course you are not 'there' yet, but it begins to be clear. Meantime you can wonder about things like this: does the 'I' precipitate out of awareness like a crystal in a saturated solution, or does awareness emanate from primordial darkness of 'I'?