That the thoughts which arise, no matter how disconnected they may be, how much they seem largely somatic and chaotic have the consistent quality of being 'your' thoughts, of spiraling up from your very heart, even if you immediately repudiate them, is perhaps a developmental achievement, hard won, because without this short circuiting ownness, they would simply interpellate you and hence limn your sphere of ownness in a yet more intense way. The ego is a factor of control, a negative feedback, lodged against wild energies, but also complicit with them, a velvet madness.