Once the stage is set the motives appear and the actions follow, or not which is merely another kind of action. Living through is mostly the rapidly changing contexts which you learn to identify and to modify according to more general motives. If you look there is no one doing anything, just occasions arising within contexts or stagings that are always already in place, that are there before you before you. This ought to be something you could perfectly relax into but there remains a fringe of anxiety, you understand it but as much as you understand it never quite fits, as if there is always something else to be done, no context ever being enough. To know that simple insufficiency, the feel of living, outside of satisfaction or its absence, resolution or divergence.