Consciousness seeming like a means to some distant end, or existence as sketched in, largely and to be filled when all the components, knowledge, mastery, compassion have been completed, all of this is part of the background to ordinary mind. It could place a scale and put itself somewhere over on the left, and note the resistance offered by too much thinking or ego or whatever, and strive to use the mind to do away with the mind or other such nonsense in search of a covering agent to be responsible for all the mess. When actually awareness is open and self-luminous and requires no knower, no perfecting, being complete as it is. The trick is that there is no trick, only that you can't believe it, and keep thinking that there has to be something more.