Unless you have open access to all of your desires, or to the sphere of desire in general, you cannot begin to filter your true desires from the many refracted, reflected, mimetic and otherwise distorted and inauthentic desires that you also harbour. Obfuscating desire is also the result of a certain desire, it is not only a matter of internalising a version of the social world, but also a reluctance to face up to the sheer contingency and absurdity of the sources of desire, the triggers of a lifetime, whether in certain events or in adventitious predispositions.