Experiencing, which is uncut and stretched out in time, is your sole reality, or as close to it as you can get, but you care little about it. It is entirely unpredictable and since there is nothing you can do about it you pay it little attention, as such, encountering it perhaps only in an artificial way in deliberate mindfulness. What you care deeply about are your models, your subject ego, for example, and the persistent experiments in living that you perform with them. Care has no object but care and out of that a simulacrum of experiencing, reflective, refractive, second or third hand at best.