As in most instances you only have one idea, have only ever had one idea, and no matter how you twist it and turn it, no matter how blind you are to it, it reappears down every path you take. That's not a problem, just as immediate experience can't be a problem, your loyalty to it is a kind of virtue: you are the destiny of that idea. Or one of its destinies since it is hardy unique, an insignificant fiber of a decadent time and place. Only that it happens to be a pretty foolish idea and you wish that it were not. Is the wish integral to the idea? Is that what makes it such a bad one?