Experiencing spontaneously organises itself around an experiencer according to memory and desire as being on the one side the identically same one who experienced various past events reaching back into definitive childhood moments of self-recognition, and at the same time also the one who through bringing about certain scenes will infuse the ever-changing 'me'-ness, the faithful adjunct of the self, with depths of satisfaction and self-possession now only imaginatively projected into the future. The void of not knowing who in heaven you are that you should be this very experiencing is thus filled by this dual temporlisation into the past and the future which draw all their power to claim a form of reality from the intemporal identity of present-source. This shouldn't be as beguiling as it is. Those wondrous childhood moments were only realisations of the felicitous fictionality of your name and your place in your family, and the future moments of satisfaction are merely their revival at one remove by recreations of lost intimacies.