You might look at it from the outside, describe it or imagine describing it to someone else, consider it from another perspective. The moment there is anything, an emergence for you of you, this is necessarily possible, it is imposed on you because it can't be conjured away; a perspective is others looking and you are one of them. And whatever it is, it might look good, but more likely looks bad, looks like a destiny, is predictable, is fixed in a pattern so that it is equally certain that the limitation inherent in that pattern cannot be overcome. This awareness of obstacle has nothing to do with overcoming but everything to do with the subjectification in the felt need to overcome, to recreate or rehearse or merely repeat the image of freedom. The actual degree of freedom is far less than the imaginative capacity, and the point is to play these off against each other. The point? Well everything emerges out of this so there ought to be someone responsible. But that's just it, you've used up all the subjects there are, there aren't any more lying around. But that absence too is a subjectification, the last subject is no subject.