Awareness, or experiencing is not built up out of atomic or modular pieces. That is logically clear since everything we know as awareness or experiencing would go into the synthesising of these putative components. Intuitively, however you tend to think in that way since that is how experience becomes amenable to such management as you can afford. What is it like then? Something like emanation, perhaps. Not out of the bright sun of full being, at least for you, but out of the infinitely deep abyss of pre-consciousness.