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Tuesday, 21 December 2021

The default mode of attention is light, continuously roiling, sub-vocal and always personal, it neither tires nor refreshes, but can be experienced as pleasurable after some event that forces its absence. It is a sort of home state, not of degree zero or of degree one, but something like degree one-half. Deliberate attention on attention, no matter how passively (how in the passive-voice) it is effected is tiring and therefore prone to breaking off. When it does so there is a sudden transition to a hypnagogic kind of state reminiscent of tuning a short-wave radio through a range of frequencies. The contents are impersonal, vivid, always in medias res and seemingly entirely without psychological significance, visual and aural, with characters in scenes that seem utterly familiar although entirely strange. The transitions are not noticed and such that short-term memory is not engaged. This is perhaps closer to zero-degree attention and marked by a complete absence of the personal self. In retrospect it seems extraordinary how easily the latter is switched out. Dreams seem to be formed by a ghostly version of that self reforming in the midst of this quite pleasurable turbulence and steering it into psychologically coloured developments.

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