Most of it seems to take place somewhere between the meta- and the meta-meta- of experiencing. Every time you try to climb down the ladder, no matter how softly softly you go, you end further up. Is there a bottom at all? Probably not, it's not really that kind of ladder, in the same way that what you call experiencing is nothing like that at all, but a way of giving up some assumptions in order to hold more tightly to others. The ladder hangs in mid air, if you want to get to the bottom you need to jump.