To go back by the way you came means a reverse series of affective reconfigurations. Becoming less individuated rather than more, or better, being able to use, to consume, everything that was gained in that process in order to withstand what it was that differentiation was installed to protect you from. This is why being is not the end but only a pointer for the direction, more sensual, more erotic, more immediate, more violent, the origin and end of life.