Awareness of awareness is ever present in the background and is why there are qualia, why there is something that it feels like to be you. It is also why it is always clear that nothing that appears can ever be the experiencer. This is nothing that you do or that you bring about but is the simple nature of experiencing. Nevertheless there is something incomplete in this mode of being, the knowing itself of awareness creates a tension towards fuller realisation at the same time as the capacity for that fuller realisation is already fully accomplished in it. It is as it it wants to add your mediation to its own immediation. But to do this it applies to you the knower, which on the surface appears to be the oddest choice. Why should the full unfolding of self-knowing need to include the personage you in its circuit? It insists on bring it about with the least likely of means. There is such a comical mismatch here, sending a puppet to do the work of a god. Well, if it amuses the god to do so, who are you to say.