You are looking for an event in the understanding of experiencing that is as clarifying as falling in love would be in interpersonal relations. So the rush of certainty is more important than whether it is true? But each love is always the one and only true love - truth serves love as love serves truth. You look each moment in the eye and wonder, is it you? An experience that reveals your destiny, an experiencing that you would address as 'thou'? (If this was being written in a language with an intimate second person form would that be used in place of 'you'? All of the time, some of the time?) An event that seizes you from the outside, a response from reality beyond your worth - an event in value, that overturns all values, more than in knowledge. Knowing is the mobility, the vehicle. All the striving, the trappings, fall away when the destination nears.