It's not the mind but the soul that mediates being. This resists capture in thought even if you've understood it only through its projection in thought, leveraged it into ideas. The organ of the soul is what is called living, which means that the world you find yourself engaged in is your soul's reflection. Look for the places where certain kinds of feeling, and memory, of subtle music, are concentrated - see how the circus of cultures contains and exposes these - not without adding its own commentaries - and how they are repeated in your body. You end up right back where you started. Infinite trajectories of myths and stories - the heart's subversion of the mind. To face all of this is to become transparent, to disappear within the rumours of spirit.