You are just in the thing or else you make a conscious effort to be aware of being in the thing at the same time as you are in it. That's how it seems, as if you could pull back from the arc you were following and see that there is the arc and there is you following. And it seems as if, by a change in attention, you have moved the centre of gravity of the affair back into your ownness, as if you are reserving what would otherwise be squandered. But have you really done such a thing? Have you intervened in anything or have you only folded the arc of doing back onto itself? It's still a doing, just as before, but with an alteration of the idea of what it is. And besides, the original arc doesn't actually continue, it quietly faded into the background and attention is now taken up with an image of yourself doing what you were just doing. This operation certainly effects a slight halt in the continual unfolding of the doing. It is not so much that a new kind of reflexive content has been attained, but that the process has been momentarily confused and thrown out of rhythm. A moment later the movement resumes, aiming now at the subjective object that has been conjured up. The stab at reflection is subsumed into its idea, or into a blurrily felt meaning. But this meaning is less connected to the web of motives than was the original unself-conscious doing. It refers only to a vague kind of feeling and so in following it you descend momentarily into a dream world full of strange goings on unrelated to anything. And after another moment you pull out of that with a mild start.