You'll never get it right. The very nature of this thing is pure spontaneity of an indescribable freshness, that is why there is something rather that nothing, it is the only way appearance can appear. But it embraces everything including thought and somehow thought proves too much to handle so that it would say what it is, as if it all could be described, or fitted into forms for the knowing. If there can be reflection there is reflection right inside the moment which cannot be, and if there were thought it too would be right there, a kind of reflection, a second creation, and couldn't be. Only thought demands that there be thought. If there is only a single creation then everything collapses into the thoughtless immediacy which is all it ever could be. Unreflecting thought at play.