The zero-one see-saw. It is as if you embody the balance between the weights of the objective world and the Subject, between phenomena and noumenon, when there can be no balance between such two. Ordinary reality places all the weight on the objective side, since the subjective side seems a vague and shadowy thing, an elusive 'might be' that you cannot entirely give up on, but that hardly counts against the immense ponderability of the phenomenal panorama. You strive to maintain some sort of balance, aware that it is mostly in bad faith, a sort of strained saving of the appearances. But this is because you never seriously consider what it is that is actually experiencing, or Who it is that sees or knows. The reality of this side is simply incredible, a blind spot, but more like a black hole, super-massive. Rightly conceived it infinitely outweighs the phenomenal, no question of a balance at all. The see-saw seems to teeter only because you fail to realise this. But for whom is this even an issue? It can only be for the one who thinks he is struggling to hold the subjective up against the overwhelming weight of the objective, all those evidences, as big as trucks, as mountains or moons. He needs to see the absurdity of all that. One cubic millimetre of the Subject weighs more than all the galaxies. There are no appearances to save - appearances to whom??