There is no knowing yourself as object to a knower, but there is the realisation that there is only the knowing which coincides with this freedom at the heart of being. It is a withdrawal of the spatialisation of experience, a reclaiming of transcendences as integral with the immanence of the knowing act, and a  withdrawal of temporalisation, of the imagined alienation of the timeless act from itself in an internal and intimately present dimension called time. The same logic operates, yet more keenly, with respect to desire, since the knowing is a corollary of desiring. Your desire is always for some object that is outside of itself, this is the very ratchet of moment to moment experience, a directedness in value to what is elsewhere. This elsewhere is internally constituted in desiring. The event of desiring creates a world of values out of reach and you go forward in purpose pursuing this imagined alterity as if it were where you'd finally find yourself. But again there is only the desiring and the self is only part of a theory brought in to sustain the belief that there is an elsewhere for its object. The desiring freely disposes both the desirer and the desired, all of it is utterly present and not separated from a putative self by the putative thickness of a putative hair. This cannot be understood because it is too obvious, it is revealed at every moment but at a frequency beyond what the mind can receive. You turn up the dial and only hear static which you tell yourself is the sound of the refractoriness of being.