Your discovery of death as a child, discovering it as positive constituent of the world into which you had come, its solemn presence, et in Arcadia ego, is the paradigm of many other formative events which force acceptance of this ongoingness as a life embedded in time. These mark a series of encounters with reality as a succession of brief struggles with an angelic force of limitation and initiation from which you emerged diminished, compacted, named and determined - and able to speak. Whether this genesis is accounted for in a psychological continuity or via physicalist discontinuities, whether the emergent notion of life is reflexively examined or not, the accounting draws it out into a succession of coincidences in spatialised time. The utility of such accounts does not lie in their truth, as if it were a matter of the reliability or otherwise of memory, but in their ability to abolish the temporalisation and recover, or at least bring you near to, the unconditioned simultaneousness, the ever-open, ever-presence of these turning points. For your entire past life to flash before you in the moments immediately before the final surrender would seem the obvious result of letting go of the movement of time; of course it has only ever been now, and that letting go is now, Now!