He would either wrestle with the other, in rough strife, or else let himself be infused with sensory and ideal knowledge of her. These two goals which perhaps ought to have been complementary were usually in an uneasy and teetering balance. Another way to understand this was to say that knowing could be of the will, the thought or the feeling. A perfect blend or alternation of the three was ideal, but difficult to achieve. He wondered at the elicitings of each of these organs and at their degree of freedom in relation to each other and the object. These were varied enough to give every encounter its own unique signature and draw from it a corresponding satisfaction or frustration. But if of the three will was his weakest, then it was also where his greatest discoveries were to be made. If the one subject had split itself into these many sovereign selves it was so that it could know itself in the striving of will against will and in the paradoxical recognition of identity in the hierarchic solidarity of opposed wills. Will was the giver of order, and only out of order could distinctions first arise.