What is prior, condition of possibility (as if it is clear that possibility precedes actuality, and what is eventuating is necessarily the actual), the origin upsteam of the phenomenon, all of these are attempts at what it is you seek to bring into the light, and without questioning the nature and position of that presumed and understood light. But step by erroring step, in a sort of zig zag, something comes into focus regardless, but what is thus revealed could only be how it looks from here, where what is here is only so because of the freedom of what has granted it. So what we see remains only our own reflection, a mirage before the ineffable.