He first came to see himself in the mirror of the other, but this was not a passive or objective mirror made of silver and glass but a living, variable, distracted and unreliable mirror. Having realised its other-subjective dimension he found that it was manipulable by his will, but only to a degree and with inconsistent results. To find the levers of the other subject he first had to mirror it internally. The power to do so was all his own, but elicited by the other, who now became an essential beacon point for his return to himself. This self-sufficiency was a construction that still required a going out from himself and into a world of conflict. If winning was one way to effect the return, losing was still another way, and superior in some respects because of the deeply sensuous apprehension of the other it brought with it.