Direct experience, first-hand, is a product of a complex interpretive process made on the basis of a personal context which varies from occasion to occasion. Another part of your knowledge is through inference, inductive or deductive with its grounds in hearsay, in authority, in imaginary but generally accepted entities and methods as much intuitive and aesthetic as logical. For a being whose essence is a knowingness you are mostly content with knowledge, if not counterfeit then the cognitive equivalent of paper money. The ideal of true knowledge remains something at best distant and yet to be attained, despite the sense of being not merely in the midst of it but identical with it.