Desire is subject to its intermittences and you can be left dumbfounded by the 'expense of spirit', by the use to which you have condemned so much of awareness, precluding its free self-discovery. This is to treat desire as if it were based purely on a belief, a matter of an error in perception, and to ignore its alignment with the principle of all manifestation, and at its most fiery and true, and hence with the source of all beauty, of all that is good.