To acknowledge the absolute, but only in relative terms, only for the sake of the advantages you have to gain by it, to keep it always at arms length, retaining the initiative, to have this state of affairs go on endlessly. Nothing could be further from your wishes than to surrender to it, to merge with it. To be in orbit around it, to have it as art, to make an absolute out of art, as if it could be made safe in that way.