There is an effortless, spontaneous, impersonal and very fast consciousness that simply lays out the diagram of what is, and out of which what appears and what appears to you and your situation is abstracted. What happens as your thoughts is at first actions made within this living diagram - pick up this piece, turn it and put it over there and the doer of these actions are all at first merely given. But even this giving is an abstraction from the never fully illuminated totality. It is this spontaneous and thought free consciousness that you want to steer back on itself only it must be of its own accord, doing without a doing or a doer.