As for the imaginal and symbolic dimensions the distinction to make is between determination by the exterior, and particularly by the other's knowing of you, and purely internal determination. It's not a simple distinction because the external is determined by the internal and at the same time the internal is determined by the external. It's the distinction itself in all of its subtle turnings that is rooted deep in being, losing its quality of twoness as the truth of both sides. Isn't this already acknowledged by the use of 'you' instead of 'I'? The slipperiness of the thing: you are both sides but can only operate one of them. Thread the filament of will through the hyper-dimensional loop that identifies inside with outside.