The way that the various dimensions of memory are locked together and keyed to expectation, all of this which is ingredient to the function of personal experience would seem to require an equivalent self outside of time, to be present, to have been present, to about to be present. This ought to be the case, but isn't, it is somehow known that the implication doesn't go through - as if the sense of being above time is in time, is what time actually is, without any metaphysical separation. As if the opening of time is not itself temporal, and isn't even an opening, but something else of an entirely different grain.