There is awareness and awareness of awareness and awareness of awareness of awareness and so on. The question is where in this chain is your mind, that is, what you take to be the consciousness that is yours? It's not in the first place, and not even in second place, maybe it's third or fourth, or maybe even further down the line - it keeps going on and you can see it receding away in front of you but you don't have very clear perception in the backwards direction. You can't turn around because whatever is in front is in front of you. Perhaps it's enough to know that you are suspended somewhere down the chain and not, as you'd thought, at its start.