Self, the 'I', or will, or affect, or whatever it is that is unavoidably central for the experiencing in which you arise is only the expedient, like staining medium, by which the question of being can arise. The fact that it can be approached along so many different pathways, often entirely incompatible ones, is another indicator. But none of these pathways goes all the way through. There is after all no subject to be conveyed. It's more a matter of making a display of the impossible, the most attractive possible display so that a bee might come to pollinate it.