Not just experiencing but also desiring to alter the experiencing in some way. But the desiring is also an experiencing, so can it just be the experiencing of the desiring to alter experiencing? That is a desiring too, something like the desire to still desire by experiencing desire without desiring (in order) to alter it. It goes around and around at at some point you just fall into it, go to sleep in it, but on the side of the desiring and not the experiencing. Lived experience is made out of that fall. Experiencing is light is awakeness, is presencing, nameless and open, but desire is dark and heavy is dream with its roots deeply embedded in time and in absence and a strange phantasmagoria of images and scenes.