The kind of subjectivity that you express within a stream of experience, what is worthy of response, what constitutes the past in turn constituting the present and the future, the horizons of possibilities for purposive action, for modifications of experience and of milieu, the cardinal points of transcendence and immanence, the mud and the stars etc., all of this is as it were a historical dispensation. It is only essential within a frame that is itself contingent. The mind's incessant chatter is a cacophony like the multitude of voices on the internet. They are expressions of the same destiny. Any attempt to step outside of this is necessarily futile ('you' as subject can never escape) and yet it is the only thing worth doing.