There is an absence where you are supposed to be Better: presencing can only be as against a prior Absence and that is how it can be presence. And if you look to see where you are in this what is you can only be on the side of the Absence. All this in so far as presencing remains an adequate description of your endowment in a world. It certainly counts for a lot, just showing up, that you keep showing up, or that the world with you in it keeps showing up at the start of each day. The almost imperceptible sliding into place of a world from out of the otherness of deep sleep. However it arises with whatever intensity or urgency of engagement there is always a 'fourth wall' - the discontinuous space behind which the audience is located. Where you are is always behind that fourth wall, and that is the closest you can get to naming it, making no attempt attempt to objectify it. It is an intimation more than a thought, and it can be held steadily without falling into tail-chasing, or capture by salience.