What you are is the experiencer of this and not the experiencer in this. That is an idea, but one whose effect is to gently undo the definitions of experience within the experience, or more properly the reaching towards such definitions. Experience is of course only one more definition in this, so in the end there could be neither experience nor experiencer. But for now, it is enough to dwell with the experiencer, or what might otherwise be called just awareness. To have any further notion of what this is and where it goes, of the sheer good of it, or otherwise, is already too much.