If you think you need to look for it then you should take a look at who is looking. It is as if the play of presence and absence, with its notions of evidence and verification, has imposed itself over a presencing that needs and sustains no such markings. You invent subjects because of the idea that a subject is required, but all of these subjects, these 'I's of yours are just objects in thought or experience that you take to be the thinker or experiencer. And if you think to do away with them you are falling into the same error. They are simply the backwards parts of the mechanism or organ of experience. Or you could say that the distinctions that structure experience are all distinctions in experience and hence no distinctions at all.