No experiencing is more or less the totality of experiencing than any other. This is a way of saying that there is no other meaning or reference in experience but that of the absent subject, who is absent only in relation to what is unreal, to what passes away. For you it is the question of how this sense of existing could have arisen. What came before, what contains it? This can't be unknown but what you are is the idea that it is, the ideas of birth and death, of waking and sleep, of question and answer. What are ideas, who has them, who could ever have a single idea? Fullness imagining emptiness imagining fullness, what you always knew before knowing anything. The simplicity of a gesture, released to itself.