The true seer remains unrevealed, even to turn attention around on itself is almost impossible. You think you have been courting it, progressing in the way of it, clearing away misapprehensions, but what stands in the way of it is frankly everything, the whole clutter that you've built in head and heart and will. Head work alone means nothing, it is only a game of trying to fool yourself with a mask of earnestness. The ruses of thought are far too much for you, and even if you feel comfortable trying to disentangle the odd knot it's not really where you belong. Heart work is needed and that will be endless because there is no boundary between your own heart and the hearts of others. And as well, you have no idea how to speak of it.