Continuous flowing of emotional states which modify the topology of the world, or the other way around, continual transformation of the topology of the world, of what is near and what is far, of what matters are close and distant from each other, of their order of precedence, of what promises and what threatens, of what is sunk in dullness or shines like jewels, what is deviation and what is ground, is what you know as your emotional state - two ways of looking at the same thing because the world and your bodily presence in it are not separate. But this is not like an adventuring through some misty dream world where phenomena like clouds flow over you and immerse you in their shades, because what is always at stake in every such state is the truth - these modifications are the bending of the light of truth so that it shows, no less insistently, from a new angle. Without understanding the importance of the reference to truth implicit in every state you would mistake them for phenomena. Just as you play an irreducible role is every state so does the place of truth. They are not the same but mysteriously concomitant. No version of the self that is not also a theory of reality, which is why you can never think your way out of them, even as you observe their continual changes.