Attention is appetitive before it is intentional. This distinction is confused when you think in terms of the object of desire. Objectivity is desireless and is a secondary or abstracted state; 'object of desire' combines the abstracted experience of appetite with the doubly abstracted goal of that abstraction. Appetite feels like movement in just the way that your mind or engaged self seems always to be in motion, and in this the subject or driver is not yet separated from its object or intent. By the time you describe this in terms of desire or want it has already given birth to an object. Compare a cinematic image of a stationary scene with the same scene in a projected still image. The former is vibrant with life, it is compressed energy ready to spring, it is pregnant - the latter is the same, but too slow to see. Every moment is a process of birth, it is ecstatic union followed by fission, primary forces polarising and then dying into each other and producing a third autonomous element always breaking free; to call it synthesis is to already fall in to an idealised framing, to choose the very mind on which everything is lost. It's not that you are always bursting out of yourself, you are the timeless bursting, even when what you think you are is the reaction, the strained effort of holding the whole crazy process down.