In the context of a thoroughgoing mutation in consciousness, in the understanding that what is at stake is a break in continuity in respect of a dimension of being orthogonal to that in which self-understanding has disported since time immemorial - so that all categories such as, before and after, inside and outside, horizontal and vertical, mind and body, are no longer operative - failure is inevitable. As long as you are engaged, you cannot not be engaged in a project, and any project is by definition based on false premises, false expectations. But without taking such a risk there is nowhere to turn. It is impossible to judge where you are at any time, if you think you are going somewhere then you are going nowhere, but if you are going nowhere then you can't turn back. The question that cracks the egg could arise quite unobtrusively, could be the repetition of a well-worn doubt at exactly the right moment, the moment outside of time, which is every and any moment. The danger is as much that it turns into philosophy as literature, hence the fragmentary style and the clotted language; elements of these discourses remain but as part of a private idiom. There need be no consistency between the use and the reuse of the same term. It is spoken but not addressed. If it is not a report and not a prayer then to whom could it be addressed?